I wish people didn’t take my kindness and emotions for granted. I’m a human being, I have emotions and not all of them are happy. Some of them are sad and it sucks when I have to deal with the sad ones because people decide to treat me like crap. The things I say to people are the most heartfelt and genuine things I could ever say, and yet they’re met with monosyllable answers, like I didn’t say anything worth while. It sucks, it fucking sucks.
I really just want to fast forward through summer. I might be out of school and the weather is nice but it just brings about the true loneliness that I have to deal with. I mean, my best friend above all best friends, my twin, still lives in Florida and I just can’t help but to feel so lonely without Lizzy, or Jessy. I mean, I have good friends and best friends up here, too, but none of them are Lizzy and Jessy. I’m far more lonely knowing that the newest edition to my life, Brandon, is somewhat far away. I mean, he’s not that far away, but far enough to not be able to see him as regularly as I would really like to. Which is why my emotions towards him are a lot stronger than most of my guy friends (plus, I usually don’t like my guy friends like that).
I just really need to feel wanted or cared for every once in a while. That’s all I ask.